Thursday, December 20, 2007

baby, baby!

I went in to the hospital today for my first 1 hour monitoring session. Know what I learned? That it takes more than and hour to get an hour's worth of monitoring on two very active little girls! First one baby and then the other would slip off of the heartrate monitors, causing one nurse after another to come in and try to get them back on.

Luckily, the nurses at St J's are wonderful. I felt a bit like a celebrity, honestly, because they all knew who I was, and at least one came in just to chat! One of them told me that in the fifteen years she's worked there, they've only ever had two other cases of monoamniotic twins.

It was comforting to get to meet so many of the labor and delivery nurses, and to be reaffirmed in my belief that this hospital really has the best nurses ever (that was my impression during my stay for both my first daughter's birth and my son's). But it was also disturbing to be there for a few hours, in a patient gown, and then to get dressed again and leave, knowing that I'd just be back the next day and then the next, and then in a bit over a week, back and not leaving for over a month. Probably. So weird.

I look at the next two or three months, and want to take them all in a gulp, to get it done with. But it's too much to even think about. And God gives us grace for today, and not tomorrow. It's always today.

So, today went well. And tomorrow, He'll go with me again, and stay with my family at the same time.

I took Brother Lawrence's Practicing the Presence of God with me, and it was comforting. I take to heart his words that the best way to encounter God is just to do all the things that we would normally be doing, but instead of doing them for ourselves, we do them for Him. That means I can do this for Him, and I like that. I like the idea of getting these girls here being His business.

I've also decided that I wish the labor and delivery floor had different wallpaper. I think after six weeks I'm gonna be tired of staring at impressionistic blue and pink flowers. :)

peace of Christ to you,
Jessica Snell

2 comments:

The E Home Maker said...

awww
i always wanted twins. so did my hubby..1 boy 1 girl kinds twins. hope everything goes well with your pregnancy. when is your due date?

At A Hen's Pace said...

I'm praying for you and the twins right now, Jessica--

And a blessed Christmas season to you all! May it bring you peace in the midst of upheaval.

--Jeanne