I love that this is in the Bible.
I've listened to Psalm 73 several times this week during my devotional time, and I keep being struck by the simple, honest reflection, "I was as a beast before thee."
Because the psalmist isn't hiding from God. Instead, he's reviewing a time in his life that was particularly painful. It was a time when he was full of doubt and fear. And instead of hiding from God, he's laying it all open before Him.
He's reflecting on a time that was past, and trying to see what it all meant.
He's honest about his doubts; he's honest about his fears.
And he's honest about his own state: "I was as a beast before thee."
Animals are instinctual. And when we humans are at our worst, so are we.
But the psalmist doesn't hide this from God (as if God doesn't know).
Instead, he takes this hard time in his life - this time when he doubted that God would at the end make all things well - and he lays it out before his Lord.
He thinks about it. He reflects on it.
And he says, "Here I was: in despair. Until I went into your sanctuary.
"And then, I understood."
He sees the Lord's place. He sees the real place of the wicked.
And then - extra gift! extreme generosity of our Lord! - he sees his own place in the universe:
But it is good for me to draw near to God:
I have put my trust in the Lord God, that I may declare all thy works.
Our place is to declare the goodness of the Lord.
And He is good.
Amen, and Amen.
Peace of Christ to you,