So we found out yesterday that a mole my husband had biopsied had melanoma in it. "My husband had cancer" is not something I ever wanted to be able to say. Though "my husband had cancer" is better than "my husband HAS cancer", although at this point I don't know which statement is true. One of them is, but it's going to take a visit to a specialist to find out which one.
At first I thought "just skin cancer" because I've had friends who've had skin cancer "scares", and it hasn't been a big deal. But this is not a scare, it's the real thing, and it's melanoma, which is the worst kind, the kind that kills 1 out of 7 people who get it.
Hopefully, we caught it early. If we did, the survival rate is about 99%. And I think we caught it early. But we don't know yet, and I ask for your prayers that we caught it very early, and that Adam will be just fine.
But, again, "my husband has had cancer" is not what I ever wanted to be able to say.
Adam got his test results while he was at work, and he, knowing me, knew I'd have trouble not worrying, so he told me to make sure I listened to some good music before he got home.
I didn't want to, but I knew he was right, so I looked for my favorite cd of hymns. But I couldn't find it. So I put on a Christmas cd, one of those really good cds where the whole album holds together as one piece of art, rather than a collection of individual songs.
And that's where I found the words I did want to say, that I've always wanted to say, that I always will want to say, words like "Glory to God in the highest!" and "God has come to walk among us" and "Emmanuel, our God is with us now." Those words have been true since the incarnation of Christ, and they are true even though my husband has had (has?) cancer.
It's funny, because I tend to think of comfort as people being close and sweet and tender, but what was comforting yesterday was something majestic and huge and over-awing. What was comforting wasn't what wasn't any human-sized reassurance, but rather an assurance bigger than the universe, that God is great and good, always has been, and always will be.
And I learned that really good Christmas music is good any time of year, because really good Christmas music is about the incarnation and the glory of God, and that is true in October, in May, in March - whenever. Not just December. And it's true in the face of cancer.
God is bigger than this. And I am glad.
peace of Christ to you,
Jessica Snell
4 comments:
You'll both be in my prayers.
Hi Jessica. I just found your blog today and started looking around during the blog give away. I am so hoping that everything works out for you. I will say a prayer for you and hubby this evening.
Nikki
www.homeschoolblogger.com/Angelheart/
You're in our prayers.
WOW, I'm just now catching up on your posts. Could you have anything more stressful going on??
You are absolutely in my prayers.
Also, if it's helpful in any way, I had the same thing happen about five years ago (hence the big scar on my arm). My dermatologist told me that as long as I get regular checks and am cautious about checking anything else that's suspicious that she was certain that it would be totally fine. She said the only patients she's had who have gone on to serious melanoma that spread were the ones in which it wasn't dealt with until very late.
I don't know if your husband had the same thing, but I thought I'd throw that out in case it was helpful!
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